
This was written in the center of the town during the last days of 1989. It means: this Christmas we got our freedom ration. It's a most eloquent phrase. There are two key words in this phrase: ration and freedom.
I can't stop thinking of the revolution these days, as it all started on December 16th in Timisoara. I must shamefully admit I knew nothing until the 22nd, when the big bubble burst. Things were very much covered, nobody was allowed to talk about the revolt at work (and everyone was afraid to) and I was not one of those who spent the nights furtively listening to Radio Free Europe, the ear stuck to the radio. I had other things on my mind: a baby, a very ill mother, a hard commute, a husband working at the other end of the map and above all, the biggest worry we (almost) all had: to get the bare necessities covered, day in day out.
Remember the word "ration"? Mostly everything was rationalized, from hot water to food, even bread- for the small communities. Since Bucharest is a big town, they could not provide the rations for everyone- so here it was the survival of the fittest. The stores were most of the time completely empty. The joy to be able, after long hours of queing, to buy flour, or tooth paste, or cotton wool, or eggs!
The second word was "freedom". What people longed for, maybe even more than food, was free speach, free opinion, the absence of fear. There were two sentences circulating- only among those who really trusted each others. A militant one: "we can't go on living like rats"; and a hopeless one: "polenta will never explode". Well, it did.
We have food in stores now, and the freedom to speak our mind. Things are not exactly what we have dreamed of, but there is hope.
I will be in Timisoara for the next days, I will humbly put a flower and a candle on the steps of the Cathedral, where those kids were shot. Many of their bodies were never found or identified. May they rest in peace, wherever they are.